I will greet the New Year with open arms and make 2012 my best year yet

So the end of the year has come and it seems to always stare me in the face like an my mother who’s very much like a stern schoolmarm nun w/the permanent scowl on her face,  with her hands on her hips, shaking  that long stick at me , asking me if I've done my best over the last year. Did I lose the weight, accomplish all my goals, finish the projects I swore I would do, or did I  waste my time, resources, my LIFE and get nothing done?  So I sit here and I reflect, I ponder and realize every single year I create grand, grand goals and super high resolutions for myself. So of course every single year I fall short. Go figure? So I’m asking myself and here’ the big question.. wait for it… are they really goals and resolutions I want or really can accomplish without feeling like a loser? Or are they goals and resolutions that others feel I need so I than feel obligated to add to my ever growing list? I don't know. This I do know, This year will be different.  I’m sick of being a doormat and not getting what I want out of life. Of letting people use me, make me feel bad, abuse me, of feeling lonely, of not be honest with myself, or letting people just lie to me so they look good or get what they want. So I vow right here and now, There will be no GRAND RESOLUTIONS. There will be NO feeling badly about myself because I don't feel as though I haven't measured up to what others think myself should be.  Or the nasty voice in my head saying, see it’s just like every other time. NO NOT THIS YEAR!  This year I will be happy with what I have or haven't done. I will greet the New Year with open arms and make 2012 my best year yet. Have a fresh start do things the right way and at the end of the year once everything good happened to me I will vow to do it again my way.  As long as I am blessed to do so, with friends that truly care for me I know 2012 will be my year. I wish the same for you. Don't feel badly if you don't feel as though you don't measure up. YOU DO!!!!!!!!

Happy 2012 & all my love!!!!!!!

Cassie,

Mercedes, Lexi,

 Yipper & Banana